yana'sss

2012-02-03T01:31:00.003+08:00

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Perangai jangan macam taik please .

My words are so darn contradicting.

Allah forgive me please. Amin.

2012-01-31T23:08:00.003+08:00

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I don't know what's gotten into people nowadays.

2012-01-31T11:58:00.005+08:00

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Just close your eyes, you'll be alright.

2012-01-31T00:23:00.004+08:00

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May my heart be kind, my mind fierce and my spirit brave.

2012-01-30T16:23:00.004+08:00

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Anything that gets your blood racing is probably worth doing .

2012-01-30T15:05:00.004+08:00

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2012-01-30T12:45:00.009+08:00

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This is not a song. This is not a music video. This is the product of a book from a blog.

This is something beautiful.

This book is divided up into four sections; Sun, Moon, Stars, Rain. Those four different sections collect the posts into four distinct phases that describe, hopefully, the human condition. Sun is about looking for love or the potential for love. Moon is about the act of being in love. Stars is the loss of that love. Rain is about rediscovering hope in life, at the end of that cycle.

Description of I wrote This For You

"I need you to understand something. I wrote this for you. I wrote this for you and only you. Everyone else who reads it, doesn't get it." Started 2007, I Wrote This For You is an acclaimed exploration of hauntingly beautiful words, photography and emotion that's unique to each person that reads it. This book gathers together nearly 200 of the most beautiful entries into four distinct chapters; Sun, Moon, Stars, Rain. Together with several new and exclusive entries that don't appear anywhere else, each chapter of I Wrote This For You focuses on a different facet of life, love, loss, beginnings and endings.

2012-01-30T11:14:00.002+08:00

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Tomorrow, you'll have to live with the things you said.

2012-01-26T15:15:00.004+08:00

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I swear if we were judged by Allah just on what we have on our blogs. By Allah taking your blog as your book of deeds! I fear the majority of us, as Allah mentions in the Quran, would be crying out of regret for what we post on our blogs.

Hmmmmm. Saya pun macam terasa.

2012-01-25T14:36:00.004+08:00

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2012-01-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

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When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.

2012-01-19T10:08:00.001+08:00

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You can count on me like 1 2 3

2012-01-19T00:13:00.002+08:00

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So today marks the end of my floorball days in 3 years of Poly life. To be honest, I nearly teared but what eventually came out was just a sigh. A long sad sigh. It was more of "I could have done better" rather than "Oh yeah it's finally over". And now that it's over, it signals the start of the end of my poly years. Bit by bit everything will be over. POL-ITE, IVP, reports, internship.

Insyallah Amin I'll be graduating.

And the question now is : What am I doing with my life ?!!?!?!?

2012-01-16T23:03:00.003+08:00

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" Tolong tolong jangan lepas doa, Diyanah, " she said.

:'( I want to be a better person .

2012-01-15T23:24:00.005+08:00

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Some people just know how to be on your ass and get your nerves up and risk your future along with it. And my weakness is to forgive and swear and regret it sooner or later.

God forgive me but F.

I don't want to have the same regrets again. Alright ?

I don't want to screw my grades and my future so I'll SCREW YOU (for now) . And I'm going to try to be a bitch because the possibility of us meeting again in the future is pretty low. Even if we do, well I don't give a shit.

So the heck. Allah swt guide me, guide my emotions, guard my mouth and screw you bitchezxzxzxzx.

2012-01-11T17:09:00.002+08:00

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That goes to show how much you never know when things are about to change.

2012-01-11T10:31:00.003+08:00

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2012-01-09T13:33:00.009+08:00

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Let me figure out what matters, what doesn't and I'll get back to you .

2012-01-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

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A new year ahead and I want to end this post in a good note .

Alright . So here goes.

Thank you for being there , whether it's for a reason a season or a lifetime. Thank you for making me hope in something so wonderful. Thank you for making me believe in myself to be something I thought I'd never be.

With all my heart, I hope you will have a wonderful year ahead. I hope things are right with you now and will be right for you eventually. I hope you'll love far more often than you hate. I hope you'll dream big and make something worthwhile while it last. I hope you'll be loved and you'll be liked, and that you'll have people to love and to like in return.

And most importantly, I hope that you will, when you need to be, wise and strong and may this new year make you into a better man. Understand that you deserve love, even if you don't feel like it. Because no matter how far-fetched it seems, you'll be okay and I hope you chose to stick around long enough for you to see that it's the truth. Remember Him. Put your family first, things you love second and the rest will come into place. I'll always keep you in my prayers.

I may not know you that well , but I know you enough to say that you're a great guy. You got a beautiful heart but it's just messy. With all the things I've said, even if you find it hard to accept, it's what I hope and know you will be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

No I don't want any of us to leave. I don't want any of 2011 memories to leave, especially with you in it. I just want to start all over and I want it to get better . There are actually a couple more things ... but I'll stop here. So whatever it is , stay awesome (:

2011-12-29T10:44:00.006+08:00

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It feels good to be running again . It's good. it's good.

Haha . Sorry that was so hard to resist.

So okay , since you're already here you might as well watch this .

2011-12-27T11:07:00.003+08:00

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The power of prayer will never leave you even in the darkest of times.
It is the greatest weapon known to man, a freedom no one can take away.
Ever.

2011-12-22T13:40:00.002+08:00

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2011-12-22T13:33:00.005+08:00

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A few years down the road, you'll look back and regret, not for the things you did ... but the things you didn’t do. Not for the words you said, but the words left hanging. Especially when there is nothing to lose. Especially when you know you could give it your all but in the end , you didn't.

2011-12-21T11:19:00.001+08:00

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Fist bump. Right here .

2011-12-20T14:16:00.005+08:00

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Cramps in the body indicate how long my body yearns for some workout :(
Tu lah . Malas sangat kan nak jogging . Malas sangat nak lari . Padan muka . Haha

2011-12-19T13:43:00.001+08:00

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2011-12-16T15:09:00.004+08:00

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Just saying ..

Many of us can walk, but can’t get up to pray. Many of us can talk, but don’t recite or supplicate (to Allah). Many of us can hear, but don’t listen to His Words. Many of us can see, but are still blind (i.e. they can’t see the reality of this world, they do not contemplate, make good use of their eyes, read.)

فَاذْكُرُونِي أَذْكُرْكُمْ وَاشْكُرُواْ لِي وَلاَ تَكْفُرُونِ

Therefore remember Me (by praying, glorifying, etc.). I will remember you, and be grateful to Me (for My countless Favours on you) and never be ungrateful to Me.

(Al-Baqarah 2:152)

Hence , get your priorities straight and rectify yourself before it’s too late.

2011-12-15T09:45:00.002+08:00

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Why you believe

2011-12-13T23:57:00.003+08:00

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2011-12-13T14:35:00.004+08:00

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oh yes .

2011-12-13T14:34:00.001+08:00

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And before I knew it , it all didn't matter anymore .
I think . Strange .

2011-12-13T12:20:00.003+08:00

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Just a thought . I should learn how to be more feminine . Sigh .

Don't you think so ?

2011-12-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

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I need a running buddy .

Maybe not exactly a running buddy , but the enthusiasm to run .

Because I shall need that space and air and silence .

So for the meantime , here I am writing all of this .

And for the meantime and forever , stay happy (:

2011-12-12T13:53:00.000+08:00

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The Abandonment of Quran

2011-12-08T13:51:00.007+08:00

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And that is how change happens. One gesture. One person. One moment at a time.

2011-12-06T10:05:00.003+08:00

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Note to self : No such thing as no time .

2011-12-06T00:50:00.008+08:00

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Felt like blogging since I couldn't really sleep .

It seems like it was just yesterday I tried , so hard . Kind of dawned on me , maybe a little , that everything you do and everything that you say , it starts from within. You gotta be strong inside to face the reality outside. It's not just about being tough , it's acceptance.

It's not easy , but I'm getting there .

2011-12-05T23:55:00.003+08:00

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THANK YOU ladies . Really , from the bottom of my heart . (L)

2011-12-05T12:34:00.002+08:00

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If you consider giving up on someone , you probably already have .
It's called putting shit aside and being strong .

2011-12-02T10:01:00.006+08:00

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Something I missed out but here goes :

2011-12-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

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I hope you're doing good .
mmmmmhmmmmmm

2011-12-01T15:36:00.001+08:00

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I don't like too much things clouding my mind / life .
I still love my blog .
I wish you knew .

2011-12-01T13:37:00.004+08:00

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I carry a lot of scars. I like the way that sounds. I carry a LOT of scars.

― Alex Garland, The Beach

2011-12-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

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" Pretending. I know it’s wrong. Of course it is. But we all do it. We pretend to be fine when we’re not. We pretend we don’t care when in reality we do. We pretend to be sorry when we’re really not. But most of all we pretend to be someone else than who we truly are.

I’ve been there, I’ve done that. I still do it every single day because I don’t like talking about my problems. I bottle it up, and pretend to be alright. My friends believe it, and I don’t blame them. Sometimes I honestly think I’m close to believing myself. How pathetic is that? But really it’s not pathetic, just the truth. Just the bittersweet truth of life, and every single person. I don’t mean that in a rude way, I’m not saying people are pathetic. It’s just life.

Sometimes it’s just time to let go. Sometimes we just need to stop pretending, just for a while. Tell one of your darkest secrets but don’t expect people to understand, just hope they will listen. Hope they will accept you for who you are anyway."

2011-12-01T11:56:00.002+08:00

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Blue hair . I'm serious .

2011-11-29T00:29:00.001+08:00

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Sometimes it takes a huge lose to remind you of who you care about the most .

2011-11-28T17:01:00.002+08:00

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28 November
Hey Monday (:

2011-11-25T12:56:00.001+08:00

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Been long since I see clouds like this .
Come on already . I want to run :(

2011-11-24T15:20:00.002+08:00

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I clicked 'Dashboard' on Blogger . Read other blogs that I used to have .

CAN'T BELIEVE I WROTE THAT KINDA SHIT .

2011-11-24T14:27:00.002+08:00

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We must always remember that we can die anytime.
It’s not pessimism. It’s just to remind us the purpose of our existence.

2011-11-23T10:30:00.001+08:00

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Everyday
Is a battle that I just can’t win

2011-11-22T13:37:00.009+08:00

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" I’m still ashamed of what my heart once contained ,
but still God sends me blessings again and again . "

2011-11-15T13:29:00.003+08:00

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Most people are stronger than they know .
They just forget to believe in it sometimes .

I shall try to remind you. A thousand times over.

Only if you allow me to .

2011-11-15T00:14:00.002+08:00

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Oh sexy

2011-11-11T10:10:00.002+08:00

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Its been long . I want to run . Just run .

2011-11-10T12:07:00.008+08:00

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It's just different . With you , it's just different. I don't see myself like how I was 5 years ago. When I was stupid and naive. When I used to think that someone can be your everything . No . Now I am clueless , but I am hopeful. I'm sick , but I'm stronger , here. I don't know why it's different. It feels different. And it keeps running in my head.

I guess it's different now because I know how it used to feel. I know how it feels to hope. I know how it feels to believe. So I shall stay away. I don't want to hurt anybody no more . I'll try not to give a shit. But I'll try to care a little. I shall keep my distance. I shall build my walls up. I shall keep my guard up high.

But in any case , in any second of the day, if you ever forget to believe , I can remind you .

2011-11-09T15:54:00.019+08:00

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POL-ITE 2011
vs TP vs ITE vs SP

2011-11-09T12:29:00.002+08:00

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It’s okay. It’s okay to wish you did something differently. But never blame yourself for how things turned out. Never tell yourself you can’t do better, and never tell yourself this is end of the road. Fate has a time and place for all of us and nothing you can do or say will change that. Sure, it’s okay to fall, but it’s never okay to stay down.

2011-11-08T13:14:00.011+08:00

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No idea why but I decided to change it. I guess I'm sick of it. Not much of a difference but it was fun struggling to edit the code templates. Please. We all used to be professionals editing blogskin templates.

On a sidenote , stay happy ladies (:

2011-11-04T02:17:00.004+08:00

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I talk to you as to a friend . I hope that's what you've come to be

2011-11-03T23:48:00.003+08:00

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Sometimes , actually most of the times , I just have the overwhelming urge to randomly talk to a perfect stranger . Start with a smile , a nod of acknowledgement and start talking about random stuffs like how his day had been , how is he doing, how's his family at home . I don't really mean 'he' . I just mean anyone .

It's just something that I've been contemplating for quite a while and if you were to ask me why , I have no reason why.

Without a doubt , the situation will be weird and the silence may be awkward but honestly, I believe that you might actually get honest opinions and great life stories from a total stranger .

Or if all else fails , smile . At least your first impression is nice .

2011-10-28T15:59:00.002+08:00

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oh wow . And I thought I'm done with feelings like this .

2011-10-27T10:39:00.015+08:00

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Westlife Gravity Tour @ Singapore Indoor Stadium !
3rd October 2011

*click to enlarge photos*

Sorry Nunun I really don't know why your pic is senget !! Really ... :(

This was after they exit , stating that it will already be their last song but NOOOO we were smart enough to stay and our patience really paid off because TADAAAAAA they went on stage again and they sang , for their grand finale , yeap Flying Without Wings !

Oh wow . It was ...... magical .

2011-10-24T00:49:00.007+08:00

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When you look back, you realise that
He knew you had the strength to bear the troubles.
He just wanted you to see it too .

Dear God ,

please give me strength to change the things I can ,
the courage to accept the things that I can't
And the wisdom to know the difference.

Aminyarrabanalalamin.

2011-10-22T01:28:00.005+08:00

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Sometimes I wonder what made me think you were different. How I convinced myself that you were worth being silly over. I guess in everyone's life, there's this one person that will make you feel as if no risk mattered. I take it that for me, you were that person. Even though deep down I might have always known you were going to burn me , I just wanted you so bad. And that maybe, knowing I had you in my life for a while lessens the painful fact that you turned out to be like everyone else who left.

What I meant to say was ... stay , okay ?

2011-10-20T23:30:00.004+08:00

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" When the heart has enough of hurt, it starts to close up. "

2011-10-12T13:59:00.003+08:00

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It's just sick .

2011-10-10T01:36:00.009+08:00

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Saw this somewhere . Thought I should share it :)

For some, finding the right person comes easily. For others, searching becomes a painstaking process. They search hopefully only to get their hearts broken in the end. Some people search too much that they miss out on what could have been really right for them. They search too much that they miss out on the chance of becoming the right person for somebody. Let fate do its work. That way, you won’t be overlooking a wonderful person that might just be the one.

2011-10-08T01:21:00.002+08:00

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sujudkulah yang menguatkan aku, kerana aku tahu setiap kali dahiku menyentuh sejadah, Allah mendengar setiap rintihan hatiku. Allah mengerti pedih di qalbuku. Allah tahu sebenarnya aku masih punya kekuatan untuk bangkit. ya Rabb, inginku berteleku panjang dalam sujudku. inginku luahkan segala rasa yang berlagu di hati kepadaMu :’)

2011-10-07T18:33:00.004+08:00

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And you're left there stripped with the truth before your very eyes .
You just got to swallow it in , the pain and all .

2011-10-06T01:17:00.003+08:00

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This is like a sad but happy song .

Everytime , everytime .

2011-10-05T00:19:00.003+08:00

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you know the thing that they call " gut feeling " ?
It's there for a reason .
And most of the time , it's right .

2011-10-02T23:58:00.012+08:00

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~~yeap . MY BAD I'm not good with goodbyes _|_~~

Dear Allah , do forgive me and help me suppress my anger . Insyallah Amin .

2011-10-01T12:33:00.004+08:00

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" This is the acceptance speech. The end of anger and denial. I accept that you
and I will never be the same again. That while those days will live in my mind
forever, they’re over. I hate it. But I accept it. And I’m moving on now. "

2011-09-30T00:03:00.004+08:00

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Hey baby I miss you :(

2011-09-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

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well ... when ?

2011-09-28T12:01:00.002+08:00

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2011-09-22T00:21:00.003+08:00

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Try to break away
Know when to walk away
Cos you try so hard until you can't try anymore .

Stop when you're done .
Not when you're tired .

Wallahuallambissawab

2011-09-17T01:50:00.002+08:00

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When a little thing angers you, it’s an indication of how little patience you have.
Know that the reward for patience is greater than any little or big thing that may anger you.

2011-09-16T01:38:00.001+08:00

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2011-09-12T23:57:00.001+08:00

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The more needy you are of people, the more they escape you,
but the more needy you are of God, the more He comes towards you.

Ya Allah , I seek forgiveness for my lack of attention towards you nowadays.
Help me control my emotions, contain my desires and navigate the heart to you.

Amin .

2011-09-08T00:27:00.009+08:00

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Alhamdulillah. I'm really glad I still keep this blog till now. Not so alive but still posting (:

It has been a place of solitude for me. No one really reads my blog, so who the hell cares.

I'd rather type out my feelings and emotions and post some random pictures/videos here than dwell on it the whole sleepless night.

Yeap I can talk it out and share it with anyone who cares, but I guess this is the place where I can let it all out in words ... you know .

Some posts are emotionally weird, I get it. Sometimes it's tough for me to put it in words. But I guess some things are meant to be that way - you can't describe it but you can feel it.

Heck. Right at this moment, in fact most of the times, I would like some specific person to read it. Just so that this person will know what goes on in my head/heart all day.

If you have been reading my blog, whoever you are, I really thank you.

2011-09-07T00:27:00.016+08:00

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One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right ,
I'm tripping on words .

2011-09-06T00:14:00.003+08:00

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I miss my morning runs . I miss jogs along the canal .

I had training just now . It's hard to believe , but how I miss my trainings :(

2011-09-01T01:44:00.003+08:00

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Admit it .

Sometimes it's easier to say you don't care than to explain all the reasons why you do .

2011-08-29T03:31:00.002+08:00

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What are the odds .

2011-08-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

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Someone recommended me this song.
Hey thanks , I appreciate that (:

2011-08-20T00:17:00.006+08:00

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Sigh . I apologized for the crude post below :(

Bulan Ramadhan bulan mulia . Hati naluri mulut etc semua nak kena jaga .

2011-08-19T12:25:00.011+08:00

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Haha . Marah tahap nak maki ada . Nak ludah pun ada .
Tapi bulan puasa. Bulan Ramadhan . Bulan mulia .
Telan je lah .

Tahap kesabaran ini pun masih ada . Masih bertimbun.
Kikis lah . Kikisssss sampai habis .

But oklah . Kasi sikit je . Sikit . Satu tangan je . Tak banyak .
_|_

2011-08-18T16:39:00.008+08:00

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National Day 2011
Outer Cordon

Saturdays burrrnnnn but nothing beats the experience I had plus the great company I'm working with .
Guys in uniform / Meeting the COMMANDO for the NDP in person ... HELL YEAH .

2011-08-16T01:20:00.006+08:00

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I'd prefer the acoustic version but couldn't find any decent ones .
This should do .

2011-08-10T21:46:00.003+08:00

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To get up in the morning and know you have to face another obstacle, takes determination. To smile when the only thing you want to do is cry, takes strength. To act happy when it’s the worst, takes courage. To be joyful when the only good news is the best of the worst, takes support. To be there and help people through the roughest times , takes love.

It's tough being tough , really it is .

And at the end of day , it's tiring to care . Yet it's tiring to stop caring either.

And above all else, its the kind of tired that sleep can't fix .

2011-08-09T01:01:00.004+08:00

Prayer is as natural an expression of faith as breathing is of life .

2011-08-03T12:42:00.001+08:00

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You cannot say, He made you weak, or lazy or in whatever flaw you have and use it as an excuse to not improve. Allah also made left-handed people, does that make it okay for them to eat with their left-hand? Stop using your drawbacks as excuses, at least try with sincerity. You can’t just blame Allah and sit back and relax. You have to pick up your feet and initiate the first step, if you expect to get any help from Him.

I'm telling you and reminding myself too (:

2011-07-31T01:15:00.005+08:00

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I think I should start a Twitter . I think about stuffs all day long and wanna rant it out somewhere.

But then again, you people might be annoyed with it.

"There's no "friend" in our "friendship" anymore.
There's only a "ship" and it's fucking sinking . "

HAHA . I like this.
It's so relevant to you sir, who sometimes speaks fluent bullshit (:

....
..........

Sigh , what a way to start a beautiful month. Tsk tsk.

Dear Allah , I seek your guidance in guiding me

and my fellow friends to abstain from what is deemed wrong and what You prohibits .

Amin .

2011-07-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

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I don't want to lose myself , nor do I want to lose you people too :(

2011-07-27T11:03:00.001+08:00

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Because we're all tired of giving a shit .

2011-07-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

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I saw one of the most beautiful sunset everrrr today .
Really, one of the most beautiful sunset I've seen so far .
The sky was a mixture of pink, navy blue, orange , yellow, white and everything perfect .

Sadly , was driving and couldn't snap a picture of it

This made me keen on going on evening drives along the expressway to look out for beautiful sunsets . Join me (:

2011-07-13T00:14:00.006+08:00

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Nah . Suddenly I felt very nostalgic .
And songs like these really help to keep your night alive and quiet (:
I hope you enjoy it too (:

2011-07-05T11:35:00.004+08:00

may be peace upon to you (:

“Kalau syurga itu hebatnya sehingga tidak terbayang dek akal manusia,
nikmatnya langsung tidak pernah terlintas di depan mata,
maka apakah ia boleh dicapai dengan bersenang-lenang dan bergoyang kaki?

Mustahil.

Mesti kena bersusah payah. Itulah mahar ke syurga. "

(: